Words and Nothing But

It is said that actions speak louder than words and that words are meaningless without some sort of showing that they are true, and while I do believe that sometimes we choose the wrong words or get caught up embellishing the truth, I find myself wondering why it is that no matter the actions a lack of words or the right ones can leave us feeling just as empty. Now I am not going to sit here and delve into my own personal issues, nor am I going to pour my heart out to you the reader, but lets just say that I have read into something a bit further than I should have and I am now unsure of how to deal with it. So today's topic will be about words, our choice of them, our use of them, and our fear of them, because lets face it, whether it is goodbye, I love you, I am sorry or even something as simple as no some words we choose to avoid because we either don't like them or we feel uncomfortable saying them aloud. When was the last time you walked out of a meeting with your prick of a boss thinking, "I am glad I really told him what I was thinking," or you received some bad news and later thought to yourself, "man, I really handled that well," can't think of many examples where you said the perfect thing at the right time, that's because it doesn't happen often, most of the time we react the way we know how to react and we say things or do things we don't really mean but it feels right at the time. Whether it is out of anger, sadness, or temporary happiness we say and do things that we don't really mean, but we don't realize it until we have been removed from the situation.

Where does that leave the other person? If it takes two to have a conversation, unless you are of course someone with multiple personality disorder, in which case I hope that someone else is reading this second paragraph, then when you falter with your words, what is the other person to think? Are they to just blindly accept the eventual apology from you if you had a fight, or perhaps just sit back and wait for you to find the courage to finally reveal to them and to yourself that you do in fact love them, or perhaps that you truly do need a break from each other even though neither one of you wanted it in the first place. When you really sit down and think about it, every day we leave someone hanging waiting for the words that aren't coming right now, and be it intentional or not, it is a selfish act one that is meant to benefit you, and next time I hope that you will think of the other person when you say you need to think about something, or you lose it and say something you know you will regret, because they have to deal with the hurt as soon as those words either leave your mouth or don't and it isn't fair to keep crawling back full of apology promising that the next time you will handle it better, you won't.

Now I am not sitting here saying that you only have one chance to say the right thing or do the right thing, because god knows how many second chances you have had, or how many times you have said how sorry you were and really meant it and they understood, but I am saying that we need to be more conscientious of our words, and how we choose them, because sometimes the right word at the wrong time, is just as hurtful as the wrong one, or even the lack of one.